Broken Hearts

Broken hearts- I think that everyone in their lifetime experiences one in some form or another.

They hurt-that’s a fact and no denying it.

You think that you’ll never be able to draw another breath without feeling the pain.

But I can  tell you- it will get better.

I’ve been telling myself that a lot lately, as I’ve been going through my own heartbreak.

All I can tell you is this-take time for yourself.  Be nice to yourself-read a book you like, even if its one you’ve read a hundred times.  Buy yourself a nice cup of your preferred beverage.  Get the good chocolate at the store.  Sleep in and cry if you need to (but not too long, because anyone worth your tears won’t make you cry.) Give yourself a good facial.  Soak in the bath with the expensive stuff while listening to the spa channel on Pandora Radio. Get the upsize fries.  Take a walk by the lake and feed the ducks.  Look at the stars.

Take as much time as you need to get yourself back, because too often we lose sight of our own hopes and dreams and desires in chasing after someone who fits none of them-possibly through no fault of theirs, but they still aren’t good for us.

It will take some time, moving on never happens overnight

But it will happen.

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Collaboration

This is a collection of thoughts from some friends on a FB thread and I thought they’d go well together.  

It didn’t come out too bad 🙂

Collaboration

(By Ryan Guth, Paul Mego, Michael Downer, John Panzer, Elizabeth Guth, compiled by Amanda Pugh)
Life is full of sad facts. And sacks. Sad sacks and facts. And faxes. And taxes. 

No, I haven’t been drinking.

And foxes and poxes

For some reason ‘fox’ and ‘pox’ seemed to fit the feeling I got. 

And yes, I seem kind of strange to me.

Fits perfectly. I was hoping somebody would play along.

But is the combination of foxes and poxes better or worse than a pox of foxes?

A pox on your foxes!

And sockses.

Hmmm… I think I prefer the lack of logic.

Back to x and o, though – if ‘oxen’ is the plural of ‘ox,’ 

what’s the plural of ‘paradox’? 

alt facts, saxes, and trump alt facts’s.

Alt-right all-white all right.

Maybe we’ve been a tad lax 

with trump’s alt facts

and the all white alt-right’s self-perception of the bright knight. 

Perhaps we need action more than words to fight.

What the hell are you up to while I’m out of the house?

Learning

Learning is a part of life.  Whether it be a new skill, a new job, or something as complex as learning to live with disappointment when something doesn’t go the way you’d hoped, life itself is a learning process.

Take these experiences for what they are-pieces of a tapestry that weave the fabric of your life, as cliched as that sounds.  They are part of you-a part of the word count of your story, if you choose to use that phrase.  Embrace them.

Well…

They say writing is therapeutic, but I don’t know.  Probably would work a whole lot better if I’d be more regular with it.

Some days I have too much going on in my head though, to get it all out on paper or the screen so I have to just let it be.

Things are good so far in my life, not too much to complain about other than the crowd at the laundromat this afternoon (have to make regular jaunts there as our home machine will not spin the water out of the clothing) and let me just tell you that the laundromat on a Sunday afternoon is better for people watching than a Walmart.

I’m not entirely sure that the couple parked next to my mother and me weren’t sparking a little herbal refreshment while waiting for their dainties, if you get my drift.  They had some godawful smelling cigarettes if they weren’t-which i had the unpleasant experience of being downwind of when i took a finished basket on to the car while mom and I waited for the rest of it to finish up.

I’m gonna go grade these papers and try to digest the experience.  I think too we’re going to stick to weekday trips.

 

Writing

Just joined a group called the Rough Writers club and they have a writing challenge going on this month.  You write every day even if it’s just for five minutes and post your word counts on the blog.  Sounds like fun and a good way to pull myself out of this funkiness I’ve been in lately.

Oh FYI I have a new niece.  Her name is Isabella and she’s the most beautiful baby ever.  And auntie’s not a bit prejudiced at all 🙂

Class is going well.  I actually picked up a summer session which is great.  I have some creative students in that class .

Ahh life…

We’re going to have pizza tonight!!! Which is good, not only because I’m hungry but because I’ve been in kind of a blue funk today.  Guess it’s because of the weather, but it could be because humanity as a whole is getting crazier than chicken scratching in a barnyard.

I mean, shooting up a town because of some random reason?  People getting pissed because you don’t support their candidate just because of their gender or religious beliefs?  It’s nuts.

Abstinence Only Sex Ed!

So the POTUS eliminated funding for abstinence only sex ed.  I’m waiting for the fundies to awaken from their fainting spells by aid of smelling salts and lace hankies waved in their faces to decry this latest move as proof Satan is alive and well on Planet Earth.

Bull.  Yeah Satan may be on Earth (just look at my ex) but the proof is certainly not from this.  Maybe from the price of Sonic cheeseburgers but not this.

Abstinence only programs do not work.  Just look at Bristol Palin.  Two kids, no ring, and she still advocates for these programs?  How’s that working out for you sweetheart? 

These programs are biased towards making the girls feel like the burden of chastity is all on them.  Boys rarely are encouraged to be chaste on the same level as girls.  Yes women should treat themselves as precious gifts, but comparing a non virgin to a dirty torn tie while merely telling boys not to make mistakes gives a fear factor to sex for the girls like no one has ever seen.

(And before I get gutted, let me say that yes I have seen purity programs in my youth, although not to the extreme)

If I had a child, I’d want them to know the medical and psychological facts behind sex.  Going bare bones medical with examples- most of the time a kid picturing their parents making the beast with two backs is enough to scare them into a convent.

Tell them about the good, the bad and the ugly.  Factual information is the best way.
#abstinence #POTUS #sexed

What exactly am I doing?

Career wise I know.  I’m doing something I love, which I was not able to say for many years.

Life wise, well, I’m getting the hang of that.

Doing a remake of my personal style and giving myself a boost of self esteem which I’ve been sorely lacking.

I’m finding out the Kardashian/Jenner clan isn’t all that bad.  Most of the time.  Girlfriends have some killer style anyway.  I’m seriously envying Kylie Jenner’s lipliner skill.  And I’m finding out that Kim ain’t the dummy she might appear to be to some.  (Keep your chin up girl).

I’m taking a life tip too from Big Ang (may she rest in peace)… to live life large.  We only get one so might as well make it count right?

Peace out!

Oh good grief

Writing is a great way to get your frustrations out.  So let’s try this again…

Significant other? Not so significant.  Actually turned out to be kind of a douchebag.  I guess leopards really don’t change their spots.

Job? Well I am grateful for it, but not so grateful for the stress and headaches it is causing me.

I’m still alive, and that’s always a good thing.